am i a wannabe?

I am.
I think everyone is. I *hope* everyone is.
Along the lines of....
"I wannabe more of an intellect"
"I wannabe more patient"
"I wannabe a better person tomorrow than I am today"

I am also a wannabe because I work with a bunch of very (very) intelligent people. Which is a wonderful thing if you like being challenged or stepping outside your comfort zone. Unless you have a fragile (or perhaps overly modest?) sense of your own intellegence in which case it becomes a daily struggle to justify your place within this group of elite individuals. You might think "Well, if you work there, then you must belong right?" Except that I consider myself here by pure luck and coincidence than actual ability. So I feel like a poser or, in kinder words, a big wannabe.

And so I start this blog with high hopes that 1) as I actually put pen to paper (or mouse to screen as it were) I will start to affect more currents in my, I feel, stagnant intellect and 2) I can put down my thoughts and allow people to comment to either validate me or give me a nice little reality check. Or, like some people, perhaps I just need some outlet so that my reservoir of random thoughts do not runneth over the dam. I hope you enjoy this blog. And I hope I enjoy writing in it. I wish us both luck.